Thursday, January 27, 2011

The Old and the Knew - A Life in the Pew...


There is an old church organ well past its prime,
That has given much to many through its time.
But its pedals are worn and its sound is faded,
From playing the hymns of life, now so jaded.

Oh but for a new one, that would be so grand,
At least a hundred times and better than a band.
Weddings and funerals and every Sunday past,
Hoping the moments in its tones could forever last.

In an old church building sits this instrument,
Upkeep on both is thought more than should be spent.
The wooden walls and pews have seen so many healed,
But now, far too often, the doors, they just stay sealed.

For want of interest or lack of an outflow,
It is just not the same place we all used to know,
Once, maybe just, we felt the touch of the Lord there,
So we come with yearning, when we have time to spare.

To find the cost of giving has taken its toll,
Empty numbers, once people, now fill the roll,
Once the seats were filled and full from side to side,
But only few are left, others gone, some glorified.

See it is an worn body hearing that lovely sound,
In the aging and creaking church they stay around,
The other generation, this next one not sure,
Of why to pay the price for what is holy, pure.

Up in the pulpit stands the pastor, all the same,
Bearing with a people, knowing there is no blame.
Some ask what is happening, trying to see why,
It seems so hard to hold what was, even to get by.

There are always new things and even new people,
But time and folks keep passing, under the steeple.
Hoping for the moments they preciously held dear,
When each one felt the presence of the Lord draw near.

No new organ, church, pastor, people~can heal old,
Or relight the flames, of a desire grown cold.
Yes, it is these good things we blame for what we feel,
When apathy, anger, despair, fear~our joy steal.

The moment, the feeling, power in His touch,
Never has and never will, require all that much.
Certainly not these things we tie up in our mind,
But seek the Lord, in Him the old made new we find.

Awake Thou That Sleepest


Awake Thou That Sleepest 

(by Mike Hall inspired by John Wesley’s sermon same)



Asleep in darkness, slumbering naturally, lying in bed and to yourself 
When will the morning come and the light shine in,
to convince you you're lost in your sin.

The senses so dulled in the rhyme and reason of life lived empty of anything,
Certainty to speak of you have none but you yourself know not,
Can’t you see how you are caught. 

Awake Thou That Sleepest
The hour is coming to rise, He is calling 
Calling your soul to stir within
I can’t stop from falling, except through Him.

Fever grips the sickened soul, numbed and accepting of the despair,
Cry out from the nightmare, its past time to awake,
Ask Him your heart, mind, and soul to take.

Christ now has raised you, raised you from your bed of death,
A new creature, a new mind, a heart anew,
Given new eyes with a glimpse of His view.

Awakened Thou That Sleepest
The hour has come to rise, He has called
Called your soul, He is stirring within
I can’t stop from falling in love with Him

A place for Lord to live in my life, a place of meeting and worship.
Once empty hearted, the hole is now filled, 
and the whole of worship here is revealed.

I stand in the presence of the King, unblemished and clean
Not of my own, but by the covering,
And thus his praises we forever shall sing.

Awakened Forever, Never to Sleep.
His hour will come, we will rise when you call.
Call those whose soul you stir within,
I can stop falling away by staying in Him.

In Escapable Light



A flittering tap tap tap on the window. 
The light attracts them. 
Tap. 

Sometimes its the june bugs
 with a little bit louder 
thutunk. 

Tonight a very large moth has fallen to the inescapable light. 

Somehow in its insatiable unreasonable unmet desire for the light,
 it has trapped itself between the screen and the window. 
Trapped and fluttering - 
tap ka tap ka tap tap. 
Trapped. 

The light that attracted it in the first place 
is now just there beyond its reach 
and the freedom it surrendered 
to pursue the light now gone - 
lost. 

Trapped between freedom surrendered 
and the desire of its heart that led 
to this unending tapping trap. 


What took you away from your play little one, 
what aroused your interest and held it - 
fooling you to climb in under the screen 
and become so firmly placed. 

Now you will be here until you aren't 
and trapped before the inescapable light 
you so wanted most. 
You should have just flown on, 
but you wanted more than you were meant for. 

Your end began when you saw it and now it comes. 
You cannot save yourself 
and I know its not worth taking you out 
and sending you on your way,
you'd just go happily back to your trap.


"each one is tempted when,
 by his own evil desire, 
he is dragged away and enticed. 
Then, after desire has conceived,
it gives birth to sin; 
and sin, when it is full-grown, 
gives birth to death." 
James 1:14-15

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

What would you do... I'd go to a different house...



Both Telly and I grew up before there was cable, I remember the days of 4 channels and really hating the idea of a Presidential address where he would be on every channel.  That was back when the national anthem played at midnight most nights and went to static after '...home of the free.'  Truth is I'm not all that old, but old enough to remember that.

Now, we have 24/7 ~ 200+ channels in HD and with DVRs to catch it all anytime.  We pay about $120 per month <PER MONTH for DirectTV... that's the HD / DVR  mid range package <MID RANGE.  Four separate rooms each with a DVR - TVs most always on (even when no one is watching in some cases.)  

Not just that, I spend anywhere from 15-20 hours per week watching TV.  Some of it is worth watching (sermons, educational, or news), but admittedly most of it is at best empty and at worst negative.  I really enjoy some programs that are not productive and even destructive to my spiritual and family life, examples: Big Brother, Warehouse 13, Rescue Me, Eureka, the Closer, Deep Blue, Burn Notice, and so forth.

I am becoming increasingly convicted of this draw on time and money in our home.  We were beginning the discussion with each other and the children about what it might mean to have less TV (basic package on one box with time / programming limitations) or even no TV.  I began that conversation one night with the girls over dinner.  It went like this...

Do ya'll know how much money we spend on TV?  
  {BAILEY: Like a $1,000}
Well, on a yearly basis about that much.  
  {BAILEY: Wow, that's alot Dad.}  
What about how much time we spend?
  {BAILEY: It's all we do Daddy.}  
Do ya'll feel like that is a good thing?
  {AVERY: You're talking about turning them off aren't you!}  
Maybe, but we're just talking now.  What else do you think we could do instead of watching TV?
  {BAILEY: We could play a game or listen to music or read a book or go outside.  We could spend more time as a family.}
 Avery what would you do if we didn't have a TV in our house?  
  {AVERY:  I'd go to a different house.}

I think the truth for most of us is closer to the seven year old's response...  I've seen in it families being broken over personal demands, churches left or even divided over preferences & personalities, and lives even more thrown away in selfishness.  We know God's way for us, but if it doesn't fit my desires, my wants, my so called 'needs' -- well then I think I'll just go to a different house.

Speaking wholly from the heart, it is painful to be confronted with those things I have made into objects of worship with my time and money.  It hurts, because I have a very tight grip on them because I like them, I mean I really like them - I don't want to let go, but I know I should.  I can walk out the door and go to another house or I can stay and face this, who knows I might even grow from it.

And this thing I cling to so tight, maybe my fingers will tire and my grip will loosen ~ maybe He will pry it from my hands.  Maybe, just maybe I will sacrifice it as an act of worship.

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<This was originally written in September 2010... update February 2011: through some negotiation with DirectTV our bill is now $65/mo without HD, but everybody still has a DVR in their room... we watch the news, Jeopardy, and sometimes The Price is Right together as a family... I've taken to blogging instead of wasting time on empty shows... Avery hasn't gone to a different house, but I'm not sure she wouldn't try if the TVs got completely turned off... in the meantime the Lord continues to work a great work in our family about worship and sacrifice.>


<update February 2012: If you don't know this - our family over the past many months has been called to church planting - we are working our way into this and it has been time consuming for me, hence no blogging for a while.  Last night for the first night in several weeks, Telly an I watched a show other than the news together, other than that all of our family time has been spent around a table eating supper, doing homework, talking, and playing games OR at school activities - lots of basketball lately... life is not perfect, but it seems so much richer when we are doing it together as a family rather than as four separate people.  When we move in the Summer time to the Chapel Hill area, our 'commitment' with DirectTV will be about up and financially, we'll just have to reduce to locals, news, and a few kid channels if even that.>

Who made a difference...



Recently while I was thinking about prayer and leadership, the Lord brought to my mind a few specific men whom He had used to make an impact early in my development as a disciple and leader.   These were the leaders of Indiana Avenue Baptist Church in Lubbock Texas like Jon Randles, Russ Murphy and in particular Roy McClung.  I still recall two very specific instances so vividly as if they were today, even though they were nearly 20 years ago.

The FIRST was as Russ, Roy, and I were doing dorm outreach one afternoon.  I had been a Christian about 4 weeks and was so on fire for the Lord that I was completely unhindered by concern for anything except the work of evangelism and discipleship.  Without going into great detail, I think I surprised these fellas a little when my zeal for the Lord and brash personality came out in several encounters with folks we were visiting.  At some point in each conversation, my ONLY concern became that these folks we were talking to knew of salvation and found connection to a discipleship opportunity.  That singularity of focus was to the exclusion of basic relational interaction, simple small talk, or even common courtesy.  Now if you know me, you're saying this is different than now because...  Even those who know me well would have said, 'Hey Mike, a little much, relax..." 

And this is pretty much what Russ said, except in that kind way only Russ Murphy can correct you and make you feel great about it.  He asked why I got so 'fired up' in these encounters.  My only response was that I could think of nothing else but that person's spiritual well-being and that demanded action as my heart led.  His response was astounding to me, "Mike, you're a leader at heart."  

Having recently rejected a life based on my own abilities / accomplishments / leadership, I was a little more than skiddish about the idea of being a 'leader' or 'in-charge' and especially about being held to some positional responsibility or mold.  I said "Oh no, I'm not anything except a disciple of Christ, surely I'm not a leader." Roy patted me on the shoulder standing there in front of Gates Hall at Texas Tech looked me square in the eye and said, "It's ok Mike, a leader is just a disciple who cares so much for others he can't help but point them toward God."  

The SECOND such example of a time I can still recall almost perfectly was the following Sunday.  Roy wandered up to me about 5 minutes before the service and told me the person he had for the prayer that morning was not coming.  He continued, "So, when this part of the program here comes, you'll LEAD the prayer."  I don't know if he meant to place emphasis on that particular word the way he did, if it was conscious, sub-conscious -- a little mischievous or completely innocent.  But I know I got really nervous and started trying to find a way to not be put in any position of 'leadership'... even and especially prayer in front of people - who am I to lead others, especially in prayer?

I tried three approaches.  
<Ok, I'll find you somebody to do that.> -- "Mike I'm asking YOU to do it."  
<Well, if that's the case give me the mic and I'll pray from back in the back> -- "We just have that one mic, so it'll be up there at the front for you."
<But, I'm not sure HOW to pray in front of everyone, what do I say - How should I pray?.>

--- NOW, Roy did that little bit again, hand on shoulder, square look in the eye... "You walk up to the front, take the mic from me at the end of the announcements and pray.  Hold your hands up or put them together...  Cross your thumbs or don't... Fold your hands or not.... Close your eyes or not.  It starts like this, 'Dear God' and it ends with 'Amen'... in the middle there -- talk to God.  You might even say 'bless this offering.'  It's that simple, I know you can handle it - I've heard you pray."  And I did just that.  

In 15 seconds, Roy taught me two really important things.  
1) How to pray... a) Start "Dear God", b) talk to God, c) say amen.
                                   AND 
2) How to lead... a) place people, b) empower/equip people, and c) encourage people.   

Roy took a youth pastorate at a nearby rural church a few months later and we lost touch as we both grew into other places and roles.

So, like I say, these moments had a significant impact on me and came into my mind recently as I reflected on prayer and leadership.  Imagine my amazement when my Facebook feed the very next day popped up with the launch of Roy's new website / ministry www.maximizemyministry.org and his new e-book on discipleship/leadership.  Interestingly enough, it came at a time I needed (and had been praying for) someone to come and speak some good words into my heart and ministry that would help move me forward.  

If you are in a place of service / ministry, you should take a moment and meet my friend Roy through his website www.maximizemyministry.org and read his book 'Finding Your Leadership Style'...  It's FREE, well-written, practical and full of moments where Roy puts his hand on your shoulder, looks you square in the eye and tells you how to be the disciple and the leader the Lord wants you to be.

Monday, January 24, 2011

devoted...



"Then shall you be **τέλειος** as your Father in Heaven is."


In Matthew 5:48, the Christ thus explains the purpose of the preceding discourse (Matthew 5:1-47) and the intent of the commandments and even salvation. They are neither intended for the enforcement of some standard nor for culmination of some process. Rather they are a continuous expression of a full and complete spiritually consecrated life lived for and in the Lord rather than for and from our own desires and purposes.

see also Leviticus 11:45 ~ You shall be **kadoshim** as the LORD...


Consider, the Χριστός or Ha Mesheakh מָשִׁיחַ
thus being consecrated (set apart) for a specific purpose...

Being Christ-ian (or Messian-ic or Kadosh-im) is so much deeper than a term of identification as if it were a title to claim by a singular act or even a series of acts. It is a life lived worthy of the Lord that is pleasing unto Him in every way (Colossians 1:9-12 --->http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Colossians+1%3A9-12&version=NIV).

May we live the devoted life in service to & worship of the Lord through the grace of Christ and power of the Holy Spirit.

The Defective Church

They used to do that
So much for passion, and joy
They do not anymore

No one asks or cares
Backdoor open wide, only that one
Where did they go to

Out to where they came
They are needed here, and there
They were meant to be

All goes on the same
Like all of life, toward ending
Nothing new can be

They did not belong
But they made their way with you
Once by hope, not now

One more, who used to
Whose fire is to be relit
I think not by you

Peace and power come
When inside each one, they seek
the right place to be

Not because they must
because they do or, used to
but in His service

Wooden pew, stiff neck
Metal chair is so cold and hard
Couches have cushions

Outside, outside see
There are the ones we should help
These are walls we made

Imprisoned by mind
Trapped in ways, stuck as always
To what we expect

Place, time, ways, the same
Vary these accordingly
On the base of truth

They went on because
Here would not be, as you made
To serve, as they should

Bring the walls closer
Delusion, Save the dollars
Forget the lost souls

Keeping alive is
Different than living the life
It is what we do

Look, how they used to
Be everywhere, everything
You should ask, why not

The answer you know
Ask yourself when, did you stop
Oh, you used to too

Or go on as if
An answer, simple to say
They used to, so what

Who will relight you
Not me, or yourself either
Fire comes from Spirit

Calls from deep within
The heart of passion for more
For each to hear, see

Decide, lead the way
Make room for people to be
They will come inside

Only if you want
When we do, they will also
Move toward the truth

Today is passing
Tomorrow soon too, change it
Then say, we used to

Now we do different
seeking the Lord together
He will find us here